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Recently, I was sick for about a month and from it I discovered something very interesting. It goes along with my understanding that whenever we resist something we keep it in place. The sickness started when I caught a stomach virus from my daughter. I thought it was over after I embraced some things I had been feeling but I continued to feel nauseous for about 3 weeks afterward. It turned out to be about a month long process starting with a stomach virus, continuing through nausea and culminating in a sore throat. I knew that the unsettled feelings were related to a relationship I have desperately wanted to be healed. The nausea didn’t go away but seemed to manifest in my throat and I ended up with BOTH Tonsillitis and Strep, two completely different, unrelated things. I was in so much pain I couldn’t sleep but didn’t want to go to the doctor because I felt I had to do my spiritual work and self-inquiry on it first. I realized I was frustrated with my friend and the situation but didn’t know how to let it go because the answer was hiding in plain sight.

As I was struggling with the sore throat and trying to do some Emotional Freedom Techniques and other processes for releasing blocks, I remembered an experience I had a couple years ago when I took a course about Jesus’ Miracles. On Tuesday and Wednesday of the class, my instructor wore a splint to class which she hadn’t been wearing on Monday. She said that she had been in a car accident a few years before and that she needed to wear it sometimes. When we went over Jesus’ miracles, we noticed a definite pattern. He first meditated about the potential miracle and asked if it was his to do, then when he knew it was his to do, he went to the ailing person and did some theatrics like spitting on tongues, and poking his fingers in people’s ears, then healing took place. It was not in the theatrics that the healing was done, but in the knowing. Then lo and behold, healing happened.

As we went over Jesus’ miracles, the energy in the room was so high that I KNEW that when full faith was present, anyone could do what Jesus had done. We just had to believe in our own inner guidance and step back. We took a break and while on break, I went within and asked how I could help my instructor heal her hand. The answer I got was “Just Know.” So I went back into the room, held her hand and looked her in the eye and told her that I didn’t know how but I just knew her hand was going to be healed. Within a couple seconds, someone came into the room and said, “Hey your hand is healed already!” The next day, she didn’t wear her sling and said that her hand had felt better than it had in years. Then I called her a year later and during the conversation asked if her hand was still fine and she said yes and that she had completely forgotten about it.

The thought of this miracle had come to me while I was in immense pain and also was embittered about my relationship. I inquired how I could heal it (both the pain and the relationship) and I got, “Just know.” As I became more comfortable with that thought, my throat began to stop hurting and also, I could feel my need to heal the relationship loosen and relaxed into the knowing that the relationship would also be healed. It was beyond my control and all I had to do was know and trust that it was going to heal and was beyond my control. I also asked if I should get some antibiotics and was told, “You don’t have to but if you do, it will feel better a lot faster” so the next day I got my antibiotics. Hooray for antibiotics!

I realized that even though I am very good at going through and doing my processes, it is still a form of control. If I can just RELAX and know that everything is okay, circumstances in my life will heal and transform much more quickly. Sometimes it is very difficult to relax and let the greater part of me take over because even though I lead a pretty non-resistant life, I have tendencies of being a control freak, just like everyone else.

I also realized what my attachment had been to my friend. I realized that I had been clinging to the depth we have shared and didn’t want to lose that or put in that much ‘getting to know you” time before having such a deep connection with someone else. I realized that I had been resisting myself and it was about the journey and not the destination and the only person I was resisting was me. My resistance was me not wanting to get to know myself more intimately in a different way with someone else. Also, although I love my friend very deeply, I now feel very detached from how he shows up. The throat healed and then a few weeks later, after not speaking to my friend for over 9 months, we connected and that seems to be on the mend too.

I had to completely separate my need to control the situation and allow myself to completely accept the outcome. The moment I could completely relax into the knowing that everything would work out as I wanted but it was beyond my control was the moment that the universe took over and things started happening.

Here are the simple steps to how you can realize the same results in your own life:

Clarity - get clear on what you want

Listen - for help

Faith - have faith in the inner guidance you receive

Action - do what you are told to do

Relax - and allow yourself to separate from the outcome

Your ability to relax and detach from the desired outcome is in direct proportion with your ability to manifest miracles in your life. Let go of your need to control and the more easily you can let go of any outcome, the more swiftly you will see it manifest in your life.

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